My love is not strong enough.

This week has been a busy one, but it's been great overall!
Yesterday was a good day. The end of the school year is coming up so that means the work load is light! I got out of Spanish early and Nathan & I went to Coffee Bean. I brought along the book we're reading together at the moment, Knowing God by J.I. Packer & he did some left over homework for a project. It was overcast yesterday, which I did not enjoy at first, but my hazelnut latte, my comfy leather seat by the window, & my book gave me a better attitude about the unexpected cozy weather.
Anyway, the book is amazing, I highly recommend it! The title says it all; it's simply a book delving into the attributes of God in pursuit of gaining a better understanding of who He is. Packer's writing is marvelous. He was so gifted! & I love how reading a book like this just stirs up more thought about heavenly things & the battle between good & evil that is constantly bombarding our souls day after day.
I was just thinking moments ago about the fact that our love is not strong enough. I don't have a strong enough love for Jesus. I don't have a strong enough love for His children. I don't have a strong enough love for even the ones I feel total love towards because I am human. & my love is flawed.
To go along with all of that as well, my love is not strong enough to save the ones who are lost, the individuals who are hurting & alone. I struggle with that. Especially lately. I am so small. & compared to the love that Christ has for His church & for the lost, my love is just a tiny fragment. I guess what I am trying to say here is how I wish I was strong enough to save those who are wandering & hurting. But it seems that anything I express with words towards them, that comes from my love for those people, doesn't really hit their souls like I want so badly for them too.
I don't know if this makes any sense, but it was just something that I was meditating on this morning. It just brings me back to the fact that the only one who has the greatest love is Jesus Himself. Only He can love the lost in such a way that penetrates a heart & draws it to salvation.

mother's day & little blessings.

Yesterday was a really great mother's day. In the early morning, my sister & I snuck out early to get my mom a vanilla latte & a slice of coffee cake from Starbucks. When we got back, we woke her up with a bouquet of flowers, her morning coffee & goodie. She loved it! Church was great as well, & lunch with the family was very enjoyable. We sat around in the living room & after my mom opened her cards from all of us, we had a family nap session. So nice & it was definitely needed! We got up shortly after & headed out for frappaccinos at Starbucks for an afternoon treat. I wanted to go to another Starbucks that has a lot more seating space & a more pleasant atmosphere, but since we left home later than expected, the one around the corner made much more sense. So, off we went.
What was so neat was as soon as we walked in the door, a sweet classmate of mine from school, Hannah, who I had not seen in a very long time was just finishing up at the register. I was ecstatic. I immediately rushed up behind her & said hello, it was such a surprise to see her after all this time. Our encounter was definitely brief (too brief) but it was a blessing. In that small amount of time I got to hear some very exciting things she is about to venture into in just a couple months. I'm really happy for her!
But I was taken aback at how God works. Just the fact that I really wanted to go to a different Starbucks, but because of time we had to go to the closest one instead. & I caught her just in time to say hello & give her a hug. It really was awesome to see her after so much time. We talked here & there on campus & I really enjoyed our conversations but we never got the chance to really develop a friendship.
We both agreed that it was the Lord who worked out the timing of our encounter yesterday. & I'm really looking forward to getting coffee with her this upcoming week sometime! It will be great to talk to her & enjoy her company.
I'm grateful for such a sweet mother's day & the little blessings.

                              Branyn & me at Lazy Dog Cafe for an early mother's day lunch!

just a quote worth sharing...

"If a thing is worth doing, it is worth doing well. If it is worth having, it is worth waiting for. If it is worth attaining, it is worth fighting for. If it is worth experiencing, it is worth putting aside time for."

--NLP Adage